Wednesday, February 2, 2011

The path's that lead us through the Seasons.

This year has been such a world-wind that had twists and turns that I could not even imagine. But everyone goes through seasons of change, in their personal walks and in their spiritual walks. Some seem much harder and more "scary." The year 2010 let me breathless, tired and worn out from all the events that took place, but there is always going to be that silver lining that seems to appear when you least expect.
And after you have suffered a little while, the God of all grace, who has called you to his eternal glory in Christ, will himself restore, confirm, strengthen, and establish you. I Peter 5:10 ESV
I admit, I was in a place where I shut down there for a while. That was just another path I thought was going in the right direction But when I was near the end of my rope God always seems to know who and when to place things into my life.
So we do not lose heart. Though our outer self is wasting away, our inner self is being renewed day by day. 2 Corinthians 4:16 ESV

It truely took the grace of God and the people that love and care about me to open my eyes again. That is a path I most ardently do not want to wander down again. I secluded myself from so many wonderful people because I did not know how to proper handle all that God threw infront of me. Sometimes living is hard but God does not leave you to wander, he blesses you with people who love and support you. I want to thank everyone who has stayed by me, in my test and tribulations. I love you guys so much.

I am blessed beyond measure.

Sunday, August 15, 2010

The real and only truth.

Somethings in this life are just straight up hard. But God said things for us would not be easy, that would not be life.

There in things in life that are worth fighting for; your friends, your family or even love. That last part sounds like something out of a movie, but when you actually experience those deep emotions for another person; it becomes a reality. When faced with a situation that requires a large amount of determination, courage and action; the truth of the matter is that it will hard. It demands so much of the people involved. I am in a situation like this and to be real, it's taking so much of my determination and courage; but I'm not going to give up when things get hard. I know that when I am done facing this trial, I'll come out of it changed, having learned something and happy. But with every trial baby steps are a must and have been the hardest part so far; even though I am still enduring this trial, I know it is far from over.

"Blessed is the man who remains steadfast under trial, for when he has stood the test he will receive the crown of life; which God has promised to those that love him." James 1:12

God puts us through trials that He knows we can handle. God loves everything good and even though we may see the situation as "Why would God let this happen to me?" or " I wish it was over so I can get to outcome and feel better" God is working with us, through us in the trials we face in our lives. And even though we are facing these trials and we may feel alone, God is always with us. He endured what we are enduring, He knows how we are feeling and that's why we need to turn to Him in our times of need. It is also a smart idea to go to someone whom you trust who is older; like a parent or a leader of the church. Sometimes going to your peers will hinder you more than help you.

And with that said (as a side note) Be careful to whom you tell your inner most thoughts, secrets or even joys with. We are all human, and we all use or mouths for good and evil. Sometimes things are just left better unsaid and kept to yourself or kept between the people involved.

And I tell you this, that you must give an account on judgment day of every idle word you speak. (Matthew 12:36)

But when we turn to God, we can tell him our joys, thoughts, inner most secrets and we know he will keep them safe.

Do you want to be counted wise, to build a reputation for wisdom? Here's what you do: Live well, live wisely, live humbly. It's the way you live, not the way you talk, that counts. Mean-spirited ambition isn't wisdom. Boasting that you are wise isn't wisdom. Twisting the truth to make yourselves sound wise isn't wisdom. It's the furthest thing from wisdom—it's animal cunning, devilish conniving. Whenever you're trying to look better than others or get the better of others, things fall apart and everyone ends up at the others' throats.
(James 3:13-16)

Real wisdom, God's wisdom, begins with a holy life and is characterized by getting along with others. It is gentle and reasonable, overflowing with mercy and blessings, not hot one day and cold the next, not two-faced. You can develop a healthy, robust community that lives right with God and enjoy its results only if you do the hard work of getting along with each other, treating each other with dignity and honor. (James 3:17-18)

Friday, July 30, 2010

And here it is, The truth of Me.

Since starting this blog, I do not feel that I've put any of my true self within these writings. But today is the day:)

Some many things have led me to the place where I currently am. So many roads that I thought were ludicrous, that were littered with tears and laughter, I know realize were part of God's bigger picture for me. God knew what he was doing when he sent me to Florida. I've made this town my home. This place of acceptance, of love, and of friendship. So many things that lie in my path, just wanting for me to take hold and cherish. I normally would be scared, then run away but these past years have taught me to just stick with it, not give up.

These years have brought me all kinds of things but the best thing I can say my life has thrown at me has been my friends and the chance to really feel love. A love that contains passion, sincerity, and security. There have been friendships that have lasted and friendships that faded, but each one giving me something that slowly guided and built me.

It's truly amazing how God works. He give us everything we could possibly want or need. Our God provides. In this current time in my life, I have experienced God's love and grace. It's a peace that just washes over your soul leaving all the other things behind. Like tonight at work, the other girls that I work with like to talk and gossip especially now that there is big issue regarding one of my fellow hostesses. I've been trying to stay out of it and just listen. But God just spoke to me tonight and gave me the strength to just listen and realize how blessed I really am and how I do not need to be a part of that. This was a feeling I fell in love with; true peace.

We all have the one issue that stays with us always. Mine is an issue with my heart. It's been there for a year or so and seems to ever so vibrant has the first day it came into my life. I've talked to many people about it and getting perspective. In the past few weeks, God has shown up to help me handle this. So here is what I've come up with, with of course the "Big Guy Upstair's" help. I have feelings that seem to never end and in all reality I don't want them to end, That's why Ive been holding on so tightly this issue or now I can truthfully say this person.
But what else God has taught me that trust, truth and just the two people involved are the only things that really matter. A person very near dear to my heart said, That it should always be about me and him, no one else matters because they don't know how we feel about each other or what we both go through.

I've never could come out and say what my heart feels or what I'm struggling with. We all put on that mask sometimes, well mine just came off and it will stay off:)

We are not all perfect but that is why God is with us and we have His love within us always. He loves us just the way we are!! It just sometimes take something big for God to reveal Himself to us. We are definitely stubborn, but that is how God made us.

:) Well that's it for now.

Friday, July 16, 2010

...A dream is a wish your heart makes.


[simple rules of life:

1. If you do not go after what you want, you will never have it.

2. If you do not ask, then the answer will always be no.

3. If you do not step forward you will always be in the same place]

[You have to admit that love doesn't give you
the license to own a person forever.
Only a chance to enjoy someone's company for a moment.]

[If something is not happening for you,
it doesn't mean its never going to happen. It means you're not ready for it.]

[When something goes wrong, it's more important to decide
who's going to start fixing things rather than,
thinking who you're going to blame for it.]

[It's pathetic how we can't live with the things we can't understand. How we need everything labeled and explained and deconstructed.]

[If you love someone, tell them. If they don't love you back, at least you won't go through life wondering what would have been. ]

[I learned to love the journey, not the destination. I learned that this is not a dress rehearsal, and that today is the only guarantee you get. I learned to look at all the good in the world and to try to give some of it back, because i believe in it completely and utterly...Consider the lilies of the field. Look at the fuzz on a baby's ear. Read in the backyard with the sun on your face. Learn to be happy. And think of life as a terminal illness, because, if you do, you will live it with joy and passion, as it ought to be lived.]

[lucky is the man who is the first love of a woman, but luckier is the woman who is the last love of a man]

Tuesday, June 1, 2010

.. and then the unexpected happened, I got swept away

Ahh Summertime I've missed you so.
Life is simply awesome right now, couldn't ask for anything more:)
-Be daring, be different, be impractical. Be anything that will assert integrity of purpose and imaginative vision against the play it safers, the creature of the commonplace and the slaves of the ordinary.
Cecil Beaton
- Alice: This is impossible.
The Mad Hatter: Only if you believe it is.
Alive in Wonderland
- Hate is baggage. Life's too short to be pissed off all the time. It's just not worth it.
American history X
- Sometimes the smallest things take up the most room in your heart.
-Forgiveness is different than second chances.
-You choose who you become.
Youth is easy to decieve because it is quick to hope.
I'm not going to be afriad of love anymore when love thinks I'm ready, It will find me.
Peace. Love. Smile.

Tuesday, April 27, 2010

Crazy Love

God is not above doing something drastic to get our attention. & last week He did just that. I've never seen my church get so close and continue to remain that close after. It's been such a blessing to have witnessed the wonders of the amazing man, Pastor Ken Dyal. Good things can always some out of something that seems horrible, but that is God for you. My whole outlook on the way I have approached God and the people close to my heart has changed. I for one do not worry anymore about most things.
"So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you out; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand. Isaiah 41:10
Crazy love, that is what I have for God. This undenying love for Him, that has this fire burning in my heart. Through all that has happened this week, I give up every worry, fearful thought and prayer to Him. He is my God; the true love of my life. Even the way that I pray has changed. God knows what I'm going to pray even before I say it out loud. Then what is the point of praying to him. I want a relationship with Him that is not on me always wanting or asking Him for something; because if I do ask him to help me its like im saying that God can't handle my worldy problems, He's not that big. I have to help him out. Thats not the way I want things between me and my Heavenly Father to be anymore.
It starts now.
It's been very peaceful within my soul after I made that change. My walk with God has grown little by little and I am making huge strides. :) I want to continue this momentum.
And so it shall.

Tuesday, April 13, 2010

..I wanna get lost in you before I lose myself.

So much has happened in the past week;so many things on my heart, so many people hurting, praying and wishing for a mircle. My pastor is in critcal condition and I just pray for strength and hope for his family and the chuirch fmaily here at Argyle. I have never seen so many people full of love and support for Pastor Ken and his family. I know I have been in constant prayer and also getting to see the brokeness that fell upon the youth on Sunday, made me see that even though things happen, people change we are one "church" family unit. We stand as one through all of this. Either way Pastor Ken wins; he is with us or our Heavenly Father.
1. "So do not fear for I am with you, do not be dismayed, for I am your
God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you
with my righteous right hand."
Isaiah 41:10
2. "But those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength.
They will soar on the wings like eagles; they will run
and not grow weary,they will walk and not be faint."
Isaiah 41:30
3. You will only find a few people in the world, a few people
who will tell you they love you and mean it with all
their heart. Don't forget those people who
stood by you through it all, the special few that were
there for you untill the end.
4. A heart truly in love never loses hope, but
always believes in the promise of love,
no matter how long the time, or how far the
5. Maybe we're not supposed to be happy. Maybe gratitude has nothing
to do with joy. Maybe being grateful means recognizing what
you have for what it is, appreciating small victories. Admiring
the struggle it takes simply to be human. Maybe we're
thankful for the thing we'll never know. At the end of the day,the
fact that we have the courage to still be standing is reason
enough to celebrate.
-Meredith Grey
6. Life isn't about waiting for the storm to pass.. it's
learning to dance in the rain.