..it's just one of those moments where everything is so clear.

In these past few days, everything is starting to become clearer.

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It began yesterday when my church had its annual

dessert auction and along with the lord's supper. We started out with

the youth band rockin' it out. I start feel myself getting lost within the

music, when I feel a little hand tug on my shirt, it's Ashley

one of my kindergarten students that I teach. I picked her up and she

just rested her head on my shoulder. It was amazing the power and sheer

awe that I felt in that moment, with her in my arms and in the presence

of my Lord, everything just clicked. In that moment nothing else mattered, not

my family a few rows back or my friends standing behind and beside me. This moment

was special, it was between me and my Heavenly Father.

This was it, this was what I've been waiting for. I found the very thing I was sent here to do.

The very thing my Heavenly father vowed me to live for.

It was just one of those moments where everything was so clear.

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Monday, March 29th, 2010.

My family has never been the the perfect family, but then again

whose family is perfect. My family has always had its downs more than

it's ups, but one thing is true about my family is that we are One Unit. In

times of need we all come together put aside our differences and

conquer the task at hand. We love each other just in our own

individual way.

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Last night so many things happened; I've never seen the happiness just

eminate off of my cousin Kenny before when my grandfather told him that he

was so proud of him and his dreams.

It just takes one act of compassion and love to start a downpour of events

that will change a person, to help grow their faith into something amazing.

My grandfather told me that he was proud of me and what I've become.

He is proud of my mother for raising me to become the women I am today. Just to see

the joy and unselfish pride in he eyes and voice were enough to finalize my thoughts

on what I thought I needed to do. It set the plans in motion for me, gave me focus.

The final thing he said to me just set me on fire with wonder and amazement.

As Mikeschair sings" It takes just one spark to make the fire burn."

My grand father today told me that he is going to fix things with my mother.

Wow.

That was the moment when I think my heart broke, all the bitterness, the

hate, the discontentment I have felt over time just melted away,

leaving my heart brand new and blazing.

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Today is the start of a new era, a new me. And with the

help of my God, family and friends, I truely believe that anything is possible.

The sky is the limit for me now!

:)

..when I look at the Stars I feel like myself.

I believe that everything happens for a reason whether it is good or bad. To every situation the good can come out of the bad. When things seem to be falling apart all around you, just know that God has everything under control.

"Do you not know? Have you not heard? The Lord is the everlasting God, the creator of the ends of the earth. He will not grow tired or weary, and through his understanding no one can fathom. He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak. -Isaiah 40:28-28.

I am the type of person who likes to have everything under control, a plan or a set time. But life does no work that way, not at all. I have had my ups and downs but I never really put my full faith in God and just let him work it out. I would over analyze, worry and live in fear about the outcome. I have learned that He will work it all out maybe not on my time schedule, but He will. Just looking back on my life a few years ago I can not imagine myself being in the place that I currently am; living without my parents present or getting the oppourtunity to be a youth leader. It is truely amazing how God took one bad situation in my life and lead me here to this place where I found who I am, want to be and my overall passion in life. I know I am only Ninteen years old but I feel truely blessed to be in this place with people like everyone at the Church of Argyle helping me and loving me.

And now to finish this off with qoutes:

1. If you can find a path with no obstacles, it probably

doesn't lead anywhere.

2. You can clutch the past so tightly to your chest that it

leaves your arms too full to embrace

the present.

3. Everything works out in the end and the more you worry

about it the longer everything will take for things

to end perfectly; just the way they should.

4. Fate decides who enters your life. Actions decide who stays in your

life. There's no put in trying to rush fate because the

best things in life are worth the wait.

..but out of everything that has happened; love is surely the greatest

Here are some qoutes that I love:

1. I'm not fragile because I'm a girl,

I'm fragile because I'm human.

2. Treat others with respect, and never go back on your word.

You wonder why life is so screwed up sometimes,

but all that needs to be done is to fix it,

is to fix your actions.

3. Love is 12 people calling your name and the only one

you hear is his voice.

4. Look for the dream that keeps coming back. It's your destiny.

5. No camera can capture the look in her eyes and the feelings

in her heart when she is looking at him.

6. He watches over everything we see, into the water,

into the truth, in your reflection,

he lives in you.

7. Faith is believing in things that common sense tells you not too.

8. I've got no time to kill cause its now or never, cause the

way that I feel, It won't last forever,

when your at that point

in your life, it just has to be tonight.

9. Love never fails, but where prophecies they will cease;

where there are tongues. they will be filled; Where

there is knowledge, it will pass away. For we

know in part and we prophesy in part,

but when perfection comes, the imperfect

dissapears.

- 1 Corinthians 8-10

"My life in Technicolor" Symbolizes the different events, places, twists and turns my life has taken to get me here: the place where I found myself, love, friendship, sisterhood and a relationship with my heavenly father